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A Bitter Memory

My friend, it’s been a long time since we talked. I remember those times where I was lonely. I had no one to talk to. Even though I wanted to open up to other people, I can’t I’m just too shy. Walking around that campus made me feel pretty much very lonely. I should be enjoying the taste of freedom but unfortunately the thought of being so alone bound me to this lonely feeling.

I remember the day when I felt sick and no one cared for me. Everyday I have to go to the drug store and buy all the things I need. Sometime I forget something and didn’t bother to come back because I was so fear. Every night, I succumbed to that thought that I will never survive this life.

Come the day where you were introduced to me. It was the first time someone approached me and shook my hand and said, “Welcome to UP!” At that moment, I finally knew that I had a wall to lean on.

Every time I had some problems, I came to you. Even though I don’t like the solutions you have given me, I knew it was for the best. I looked up to you and shared every detail of my life to you. There were times that I really fell and you helped me up. With you by my side, I stood up and fought for my survival.

You were there in all my trials and failures.

I know this will end soon, but I didn’t know it was sooner than I had expected.

You left me.

You left me when I was just learning how to stand up on my own. You left me when I was just beginning to learn to be independent. Worse, you left me when I was at the lowest point of my life.

I don’t know if I will ever forgive you for that. The pain. The suffering that I have experienced.

Then came the time that we meet again, you asked for forgiveness. Believe me, I wanted to forgive you. But I just can’t.

I can’t.

1 comment:

Eileenie said...

Awwww.... you made me cry. Hang in there buddy..

If you need anything, alam mo namang andito lng ako eh. diba???

LOVE YOU JAY. lol